Week Seven

I think this week I found a great example of how balance is needed in life. The past few days I have been completely consumed in baseball, particularly in the fact that I have not played particularly well, and thus missed some opportunities. As a result, I have been miserable. In all, I have let this become an obsession. I have tried too hard to play well, pressed too much and now that I hasn't really worked out, I am in complete desolation. To really some it up, I feel lost. This feeling not only has effected me, but also my friends, family and roommates as over the past week I have closed myself off to a lot of people who care about me. I feel completely disconnected with myself, my head, heart, what is really important in life, you name it. I think that maybe it is a time for me to take a step back for a little while and really put things into perspective, to find that balance of what is truly important in life. I need to remember how to have fun, how to play just to play, how to enjoy everything that is thrown at me, and realize what is really important. I think that it is important to find this balance and to refresh my head. My heart is at a point now where I feel that I am not in control, when I know in fact that I am. I feel that I am behind the wheel but the steering is doing it's own thing honestly. Its like a sick game being played in my head and heart. So, with that said, I am using this fall break to take some time for me to relax, reconnect with myself and what, and who, truly matter to me and how this imbalance I currently have should not be a worry of mine. Hopefully, this break will be a good refresher for me to figure things out and reestablish myself, my mind and soul again.