Week Six

After reading about Ignatius' life, I found that I envy two real distinct parts.  The part of his life that I envy the most was his "Ah-Ha' moment at the River, when his head and his heart truly connected and he felt true consolation.  I feel that in my life I have had semi "Ah-Ha" moments, if you will, that have given me my consolation and a great feeling.  But nothing really has made me feel connected truly yet between my head and my heart.  Most of my "Ah-Ha" moments and feeling of consolation come after playing a good game, doing well on an exam, or soing a good deed.  Sure I feel good inside and I am happy but that feeling is only brief- my connection between my head and heart is only temporary.  Ignatius' moment at the River and his consolations resulted in a life time of that feeling.  I have experienced bits and pieces of that special, unique and desirable feeling, but never for a long time.  I've always wondered how it would feel to experience that feeling, that you have figured it out, that you understand yourself, you are totally connected with the world and more importantly with yourself, each and everyday.  As I continue to grow each and every day and learn new things about myself and what I would like to do with my life, this is something that I would like to accomplish- find my "Ah-Ha" moment, find my consolation and feel truly connected with my head and my heart.

The other part of Ignatius' life that I envy is his travel with friends.  For years my friends from high school and I have been talking about taking a backpacking trip somewhere in the world together.  Each year that goes by I kind of realize that our window of opportunity to do this is getting smaller and smaller.  My friends and I have always been really close, like brothers, and we all think that taking a trip like this would be a great memory and experience to share together.  Simarily with my goal of finding my "Ah-Ha" moment, I am making it a goal to make this trip happen somehow for my friends and I.  When and where we will go?  Thats a good question, but this is surely something that we need to do.